Depression is probably one of the most insidious conditions a person can face.  It is seldom a dramatic, OMGZ-I-want-to-die manifestation.  More often, especially for me, it is just a subtle, draining, grinding-away of the living part of life.

Procrastination is a huge symptom.  I’ll get to that later, when I feel better, when I have more energy, when I care, when I am not so bleh.  It’s easy to put things off when depressed, then get more depressed about how much there is waiting for one to do.  Then the feelings of being overwhelmed by it all hit.

It becomes a cycle that is almost impossible to break.  Like many people with depression, I sleep a lot, but in small doses, which leaves me with the problems caused by broken sleep: drowsiness, irritability, lack of focus, and … um … hey, look, something shiny.

[I don't really want this blog to be a layperson's account of depression ... but it is something I am struggling with so it is bound to be a topic ... I will try to mix it up though.  Promise.  When I feel better ... ;) ]